Posts Tagged ‘pictures’

I’ve been struggling with deciding what to write about in this blog.  I already have online journals that have restricted access and are shared between me and a few friends and that I tend to keep separate from my main networks of interaction, such as Facebook.  Those journals are where I pour out my feelings, my problems, the issues that I’ve been dealing with, and where I can hope that my friends are listening and will provide me with some support.  And a lot of those struggles are things that I’m just not completely comfortable with airing out to the entire world, even if I do consider myself a fairly public person.

So what am I supposed to write about in a public blog?  I mean, at the moment, I don’t really have any exciting adventures to write about.  In the future, sure, maybe—I might try to do independent research in Singapore on Singaporean English as part of the SEAS program that I was in last summer, and I’m thinking about studying abroad in Spain next fall as part of a Burch seminar program to do sociolinguistic research in Madrid.  But, as of now?  Nothing really exciting, unless you consider your standard college routine of school-homework-extracurriculars-socializing-sleep (sometimes) to be exciting.

And the difficulty of a public blog, as opposed to a private journal, is juggling how much to share.  How much of my personality do I allow to come through in text that I know everybody, and anybody, can read?  How much of what I show around my closer friends should I share with strangers and with current and future supervisers?  How much of my heart can I wear on my sleeve?  How much of the real me—that I’m still trying to figure out, mind—is safe enough to share with any kind of depth?  Or am I just going to turn this blog into little blurbs about what I’m geeking out over—and is that who I am and totally legitimate, too?

I dunno.  I’ve been fussing over this blog for far too long, so I think I’ll just stop here and get some real work done.